Writing something for my 26th year. What I did , Who I met, What I am going to do and so on, will be described in the following paragraphs. Nothing is static, my life and career also will be updated every moment. I really believe in my parents remeber my birthday. I apprecaite their efforts to upbring and educate me to benefit the society somehow. I should be more positive and active to leave my foot steps on the roads where I ever walked. Today, it is slightly special for me. It is not only because of my birthday, but also the time for me to rethink about my past. When it comes to me, I seem to have lost my anxiousness to strive for my life, thanks to my current situation. I quite miss the young boy who studied in India for something different from mainstream value. I had done lots of things since I left China for India, due to my eagerness to gain a lot. Finally, I managed to graduate from the department of Economics, BHU with the help of kind professors and friends. I am indeed not interactive with my classmates in terms of common hobbies, except our discussions on some topics. I started to use FB for being in touch with them, even after leaving India. Since I was back to Longgang district, ShenZhen, China 9th,July, 2016, I had been staying with my parents for almost 40 days. I was grateful to my brother for his kindness to pick up me at the bus station, Dongguan. Sometimes, I think whether we are still in familiarity with each other like before. I did not have frequent exchanges with him, hence, I even had no idea of what was wrong with him and my parents. He have been working for his battery-making company. Naturally, he was promoted to the position of general vice manager handling with personal department. It is hesitant to know that some of my cousins have become the professional managers in a small and medium companies. I was doubtful if I was able to earn more in future, considering about my more education investment. In my country, the single standard for a person’s value is his earning capability. Although many people deny that, the whole atmosphere around me is covered with money. Some of my childhood friends studied in Germany for civil engineering courses, so that, they got almost 10 thousand Yuan monthly. I hope myself to have a same social status, otherwise, others would contempt you anyhow. My mother had been sick as long as 2 years. Provided that my brother had been busy with his work, hence, I had to take the responsibility of taking care of my mother. The Longgang district hospital was the place to treat my mother. I had no much experience of hospitalization, therefore, I was forced to learn the procedures of treatment. China has been undergoing a rapid development process, so, many aspects have been changed to facilitate his people. I do not need to visit a hospital for registration, unexpectedly, everything could be done just on a phone. The health care system reform has been under way, so that many problems entangle his patients. High cost of treatment is a big burden for Chinese low income families, especially, numbers of serious chronicle diseases get many families into poverty trap. Every prescription is based on numberless technical diagnoses, because the main part of profits for a hospital is from technical diagnosis department. The uncomfortable feeling was more and more, once I got my mother hospitalized. That narrow space and limited people-to-people communication make my breath hard and intense. The conflicts between patients and doctors are serious, due to the distorted incentive system. After staying in the hospital for two days, my mother was told to prepare for an operation. Without a further ultrasound check program, we signed our names on the operation contract, used to shirk their responsibility in emergency. We pushed the operation bed from the 14th floor to the operation room in the 5th floor. With one and half an hour passing, the doctor announced the success. Following the continuous five days, my mother was allowed to come back home. From the beginning to my departure to the other city, Hangzhou, I had spent 40 days together with my parents. I am still in Hangzhou, Zhejiang, owing to my decision. When I was ever in difficulty last summer, 2015, I was helped by a kind girl from this city. Frankly speaking, I never think I should give up my personal freedom to partner with another people. I always suppose I should make a difference, such that I could become a respected person in a society. However, the reality tells me that I am not determined to accomplish something, after all, I am just an ordinary man. Many times, I doubt whether I should enjoy the common life more, instead of pursing some untrue achievements. When she deliberately set barriers for me, then, we criticized each other angrily. I ever wanted to leave her for my own kingdom at least two times, but, my embarrassing situation prevented me from taking action. I have been living in her rented house for four months to make preparations of Phd entrance test. She is a careful, kind, and generous girl, but, I am worried if I could fulfill my obligations. The life is like small waves of streams under my severe budget constraint. She has to get up at 6-7 AM in an early morning, because of the requirements of her job in a hospital. Sometimes, I get up at 8, even 9 o’clock, thanks to my difficulty to neglect my phone nearby. Reading some chapters related to Economics, I cook my food for a simple lunch. After food, I am easily distracted by something, so, I could not concentrate on my book. At 5 PM, I have to prepare diner for her and me. Fortunately, I enjoy the period of reading time at night, due to good spirits and memories. The courses arranged in BHU, India are not all reasonable, so, I have to relearn the Microeconomics and Macroeconomics. The depth is not there, hence, the most efficient way to grasp the gist of Economics is to answer questions with a pen. In 2017, I am going to obtain the qualification tests of investment banks, public / private funds, and futures sectors. At this time, I am regretful that I did not write any test mentioned above during my B.C. I also plan to complete the first level courses of CFA, therefore, I could shorten the distance between others and me on my career path. I try being a kind philanthropist, but, I have to make my parents live a colorful life at first. To my loved ones. Thank her for accepting me, above all, tolerating my badness. It is she that gives me courage to love everyone who loves you. I wish my parents and brother could have a healthy body. Date:16/Dec/2016
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